The Nudge I Couldn’t Ignore: How I Finally Stepped Into My Spiritual Calling

There comes a time when you just know.

You may not have all the answers or a full plan, but something inside you whispers, and sometimes shouts, that you are meant for something more than what you are currently doing.

For me, that's something with spiritual work. It started subtly… A feeling during meditation. A message during a walk. A client saying, you are meant to do this. Divine downloads or guidance at any old time. Signs, synchronicities, feelings, and nudges from divine helpers that were all around me. But fear and self-doubt made a cozy little home in my mind, and I kept second guessing what I already knew deep in my soul. Fear can confuse us and keep us stuck.

I told myself I wasn't ready, that I needed more training, that I had to be perfect before I could begin. So, I stayed stuck for years, knowing I was being shown time and time again that I was meant to follow guidance. And in that stuckness, something inside me began to ache.

When we ignore the call of our soul, it shows up in our body and in our behaviors. In my case, I began to feel low, heavy, disconnected. Not quite depressed, but not fully alive either. It showed up as ailments and dis-ease. And like many, I started numbing. Wine at the end of day became two glasses, then three, or more. The silencing of the knowing in me that was screaming at me “this is not all that you're here to be doing and living, you need to listen and follow your guidance.”

But spirit is SO patient and persistent. One day, I stopped trying to have it all figured out. I stopped worrying whether or not I would be enough. I took one inspired step, then another, and another as they came to me. I surrendered to the divine orchestrators and their guidance for me, and things began to shift. Doors opened. Situations appeared. I kept showing up scared, imperfect, human but with TRUST and FAITH and deeply supported by something greater than me.

If you've been feeling that tug, that ache, that deep sense that you are not doing all that you are meant to be right now, then please listen to me. You don't need the whole map. Just turn within and start listening for a first step and take it.

We're not here to be perfect. We are here to be aligned so that we can expand and grow. Thank the mess, the numbing, the fear, the physical ailments or dis-ease, the loneliness, the confusion, the critics, it's all part of growth, expansion, and the beautiful way to the highest and best version of ourselves.

If you're there now, just know you're not alone. And it's never too late to say yes to what’s calling you.